I'm Sorry I Missed Out

I lost my account info for a long time, but I am back now. I really need to catch up with everyones post~ glad I have so much to read now. I have been feeling empty. I have an issue and tried to write it all out to see if i would feel any sense of relief. I thought that going back to blogging would be good for me? I'm not sure what to do now. Everything has been bugging me lately. It feels like childish issues and it's disappointing on how much I allow things to bother me. I wish I could just turn the emotional radar off. I want to confront the matters but I can't clearly put my thoughts into words .-. its all jumbled. I can't find my point. I want to solve everything so that I can stop feeling like shit and have thoughts for myself, not concerning others.

So I dyed my hair again....I flipped after Cuz it looked so bad to me xD but now that the color has settled more it's not as bad as I thought. it just a lil diff tint. Trimmed my hair a couple of days before too since my hair was getting long. I like how soft hair gets after a trim~ I had so many split ends o: good riddance

San jose

Wow I had a post as a draft but it didn't save TnT now to start over.
I went to San Jose today with the fam~ we had to take a package to an old guy  he's like the friend of my mom's family. He's going to mexico this coming week so he said he would take the things my mom any ed to send to her fam for her. My aunt left us some things she wanted us to put it he package too. The guy had a nice house *o* it made me feel like a peasant. After that, my fam and I went to the mall. They got a daiso there xD I was so happy~ but I was broke...so didn't get to get anything. I will be able to next time. Yun, if I ever visit we gotta go there. My day was pretty fun. Now I gotta catch up with your posts. I missed so much D: I forgot what else to add now

I went to Dell'osso farm with Penny yesterday. We rode a scarecrow ride where you see a whole line of decorated scarecrows and vote for 4 you like best. They were decorated by elementary kids and they did a pretty good job xD a bunch of them were cute. There was the corn maze too. Penny had me lead the way   >< I ended up taking us in circles at times, but still fun.

The terrible part was the haunted house. The house was so dark, I couldn't see anything. The only thing you could see were the lit up "monsters" that decorated a wall. Idk how penny led the way xD Gosh I got so scared.I ended up squeezing Penny's arm....I hope I didn't stab him with my nails. He had to keep pulling me forward cuz my body was so stiff e.e did not expect to be that scared and it wasn't that bad. I hope that's the only one I ever go to.

After that, we ate a quesadilla. We were going to watch a movie, but there was an hour to spare.Michelle wanted to see the movie too, so we picked her up first. Hehehe saw Hotel Transylvania. the movie was pretty good and cute.

Yesterday was a good day :D

When I went to the ER for my stomach pain, there were two ladies at the front windows/desks. My mom and dad drove me. My tummy hurt, so I didn't feel like talking. My mom explained to one of the ladies that my stomache was hurting and that I needed to get checked for anything. The lady gave my mom paperwork to sign and asked how old i was. My mom said 18. They lady looked at me and laughed -.- She was all, "omg, I thought she was 12." Lady, I was in pain and you dare laugh. Do your job seriously, you're in the freaken ER for heavens sake! Yes, I get it, I look younger, but are you kidding me?! I held my anger and said "uh yeah 18 ^^" Then she asked me questions like "who makes medical decisions for you?" I didn't know what else to do, so I said my mom. I just wanted to see a doctor fast >< She replies with "oh, but you're 18" in an attitude way. Then why the hell you ask? gosh, she was so stupid and rude. I didn't understand her second question and when i asked for clarification, she moved on. That was the most annoying part of that day. 

Good thing that my nurse was really nice ^^ it was a guy. He wasn't peppy. He was pretty monotone and dead xD but funny and really nice. He gave me hope, cuz I'm not so peppy and don't fit the usual nurse. 

Awww, Yun sorry I didn't get to say happy bday the day of >> I was over there. Don't worry >: D I still got a gift, just don't know when or how to give it to you yet. Happy late b-day. 

Hehehe, Penny visited me~ It made me really happy. I didn't expect myself to get that happy cuz I didn't want him to visit. I was a mess xD but it was nice. 

I bought a sandwich at targets lil food court. I found out that they toast your sandwhich for you, if you want. The sandwhich was good ^^ filled me up for the day. 

For once, my group didn't finish our bio lab first. Well no groups finished xD it was long and our "leader" was gone. 

I watched anime before and after school, I don't have my priorities straight. I know the main dude gonna end up with a character I dont like much TnT why you do this to me?

I saw deilys yesterday ouo I wanted to make him mad so I told him,"you still suck at pool?" his face killed me xD look like he was ready to punch me. He used how he and ben won as a comeback, yet he didn't say how  was bad at it too.

In pe, the teacher locked Boss, a lady, and me inside the track. It was so hot, we were in the sun. Then some other pe teacher saw us and let us out.

My neck is so sore e.e I can't sleep comfortably. I woke up at 4 in the morning and couldnt sleep til 6. Dang karlas hamster scared me. When I got up at 4, I went to use the bathroom. The house was all dark and when I go out, I heard a noise like a rolly chair rolling on the tiled.I forgot all about the hamster, so I got scared.The noise was from the hamster running on its lil wheel. The wheel sounded so loud tho.

Man, I got you guys on my mind all the time~ Like I keep wanting to get you guys gifts, but your bdays and Christmas are still many days away xD We should all skype.